i feel so tired now.no clue why.sighs.its raining.no.showering.it stops and starts any time.tsk.and im feeling cold.tsk.and tomorrow's my malay paper.but wth.never mind.i shall be fine:/

i hate saturdays.i dont like.really.i realise that on almost every saturdays.yeah.i would always be having bad headaches.and i hate it la please.and im always going out with my family members on those days.for the past few saturdays la.and then i would just be in no mood to even talk or even do anything.sighs.
erps.organ class was okay.came late.haha.and i mean,VERY late(:haha.and i left the same time as yumin and saraniah.hahahaha.oh yes.after our class,the school recieved loads of money la please.we photocopied alot of songs.and i mean,ALOT.we paid like $8+ for the papers please.haha(:

went to cik lah's place after that.had kenduri.but i basically did nothing else,besides eating.haha. seriously.i went there to eat only.hah(:

i went totally sad on my way home in the car.had no clue why.yeahh.i wrote this,somehow
"i slashed myself at the wrist.i poked myself with forks in the eyes.i shot myself in the head;dead.imagine me doing all these.how wonderful life can be"
then went on being crazy.yes.i was thinking about death.i dont know why.it came to me all of a sudden.and its like..i really hate all these "all-of-a-sudden" things.yeah.seriously.i just hate it.

something shocking happened minutes after that.but lets just keep it a secret.yeah.

had religious class earlier on.exam.hahaha.and its like TAJWID.haha.i totally suck at it la please.tsk.well anyways,me and atiqah were basically rushing through the book,memorising the examples for each hukum.haha.and guess what?we're FAST LEARNERS(: woots.haha.i cant imagine that i could actually answer the questions ustaz posted to me la please.haha.but well,hopefully i'll get fine grades.yeah.

i've been thinking negatively nowadays.thinking of death and stuffs related to hurting myself.like...do i need to go for counselling?do you think that i need to?all these feelings stuck in me,like no body cares.


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